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Yeah

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Unwanted by women and even less by my father. Trying to move on but can I move any further? Want to change what I can't change and that's left me bothered. The book of life's not finished but I need words with the author. I'm getting sadder and more lost. The more I feel the more I grow soft. Wish I could tell someone about the demons that I fought. But I've been told at my age it's better I not. And it's not cause I don't wanna be a bother, I just don't want to be pitied like the people's little brother. Or babied like I'm talking to my mother. I'm a man now, yes one without a father but I need to suck it up to look after others.
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Never again

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  I don't wanna love again Even though I know it'll happen eventually, currently I don't want to do it. Because when you love someone they're everything to you. But there's no guarantee you're everything to them. And when something starts,it's gonna end. Not because of you but because they like you as a friend. And then you're left there looking from a distance, seeing them love someone how you loved them and asking yourself why you're not enough now but you were back then. I try to move on but it all feels like nothing in the end and I can't feel bad because I know you're happier with them. I just hope I never love again.
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Reflect

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 I don't like what I see when I look in the mirror. I see someone who tries to do the right thing but ends up losing in the end. Someone who always feels alone despite being surrounded by friends. Someone who's tired and wants the pain to end. Someone who doesn't belong anywhere. But what is belonging? A sense of comfort in one's surroundings? If so then I belong nowhere, nowhere at all. And so I continue to fall...
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